i realized why i suck so much at writing posts. i whine too much. in fact. all i do is whine. i think i've only had one post that i was "proud" of. and it's kinda so lame that i won't even actually name it.
but hey! why stop what i already do? even if i suck at it? heh. wistful thinking. have some random rants
why is heidi montag so "popular"? i find her so annoying, and i didn't even watch the hills. how dare she compare herself to britney? i wish tabloids and paps would stop enabling them. i don't believe miss universe actually had her perform. just to stop some of the madness, i'll take out the next paragraph i had ranting about her, and remove her name from the title. oh man, i'd almost become an enabler.
why do so many news sites use videos? thank goodness that they still have normal articles, but seriously, sometimes i wish they would transcribe their videos because i hate watching videos because they take exactly how long they want to take. i usually read articles in under 30 seconds, unless i think it's important enough for me to actually take the time to peruse the whole thing. i typically don't even read the whole article (unless you know, i know the person who wrote it). i glean whatever relevant information that is useful to have as either conversation later, or simply a database of events. this is completely roadblocked by videos. oh well, i don't exactly read all the articles anyway so it's not like my database of events is all that complete in any sense or form.
i'm trying to figure out how to cook this summer. and it's been kinda interesting. although now i'm not sure what kinds of foods to try making. i've been pretty successful at not going out to eat for at least week at a time. (i know. what a very sad, insignificant goal)
i think i will cancel my mcat score. i'm no where near as prepared as i wanted to be. but now it's too late to cancel it, and get at least half my money back. so i guess i'll take it for practice and then hit cancel score! at least it'll take some of the stress of preparing out of it. i guess i'll be studying over winterbreak and taking it in january.
chicago has been extremely cold lately. cold enough in fact to trigger mini breathing problems for me.
i wonder if i'll do enough studying to allow myself to watch the wizards movie tonight :P i don't know how i feel about selena gomez and the scene. it's intriguing, but i think disney may have a bit too many stars with shows and bands. what happened to the "one at a time" rule they used to have?
and i definitely change my mind, selena is way cuter than demi lovato. there's something kinda off about demi's smile. but she's only a kid, and i feel bad about judging her about her looks too much.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
after this-- no more lists
sorry. i have to put this somewhere because i want to have a log of it, but now i'm just embarrassed by it... hanging out on my fb, with no changes for over a year. it's embarrassing.
list of things i want to do in the next ten years.
1) plant a rose garden
2) go to the top of the eiffel tower
3) eat gelato cone on the spanish steps
4) ride a motorcycle
5) climb a mountain to go stargazing and sleep under the stars
6) sew a purse out of random fabric
7) dance somewhere beautiful
8) build a structure from scratch [treehouse, gazebo, play structure for my kids-- and me after they've gone to bed]
9) take a tour of Cern
10) find and run across the bridge in kikujiro
11) develop my own anime character and story
**12) go to a jason mraz concert ** april 9th- completed with greg, em, byron, john, steven
13) build my own beauty and the beast library
14) go on a sightseeing bike trip
**15) go sailing on the lake -- done with Art, Em and Greg--
16) build and paint my own japanese screen
17) go scuba diving in australia
18) learn the viennese waltz
19) chalkpaint on my backyard sidewalk
20) run a marathon
**21) go rock climbing! ** done with RCB exec, more specifically Evgenia, Tom, Barbara, Lisa, Grace and Drew
list of things i want to do in the next ten years.
1) plant a rose garden
2) go to the top of the eiffel tower
3) eat gelato cone on the spanish steps
4) ride a motorcycle
5) climb a mountain to go stargazing and sleep under the stars
6) sew a purse out of random fabric
7) dance somewhere beautiful
8) build a structure from scratch [treehouse, gazebo, play structure for my kids-- and me after they've gone to bed]
9) take a tour of Cern
10) find and run across the bridge in kikujiro
11) develop my own anime character and story
**12) go to a jason mraz concert ** april 9th- completed with greg, em, byron, john, steven
13) build my own beauty and the beast library
14) go on a sightseeing bike trip
**15) go sailing on the lake -- done with Art, Em and Greg--
16) build and paint my own japanese screen
17) go scuba diving in australia
18) learn the viennese waltz
19) chalkpaint on my backyard sidewalk
20) run a marathon
**21) go rock climbing! ** done with RCB exec, more specifically Evgenia, Tom, Barbara, Lisa, Grace and Drew
Friday, August 14, 2009
time to stop dreaming... kinda
okay. so back to reality.
i think i should do this post on what i want for myself in the near future and far future. just so i have it down. and i don't forget, or get too bogged down on everything.
what i want next month:
1) to have done decently on the mcat (dr. green said 35- i'd love a 38)
2) to have started school on the right foot
3) to get some exercise and have a good sleep/work schedule
what i want for the school year:
1) to get that darned 3.75
2) to appeal and be successful-- if not, then to try med schools
3) to get a position at a hospital
4) to get a job that i will enjoy? (maaaybe?)
5) to go abroad--> this is the least likely since M got sick abroad and now my whole family is terrified of the idea.
what i want next year:
1) to start med school
2) to make some good study buddy friends
3) to have greg somewhere close by
what i want in the next few years:
1) to make it through med school
2) to get into a California residency program
3) to have greg somewhere close by
4) to be closer to my friends from home. i miss them. and i shouldn't have left california in the first place
after that-- i guess, family, blah blah blah. i personally don't think i'll ever be mature enough to have a kid. heh. but i do still want to host foster kids when i'm older and my biological kids--if they do exist-- are all in college and doing their own thing.
so on the biggest most important thing on my plate right now! mcats (: yay! (sigh)
i think i should do this post on what i want for myself in the near future and far future. just so i have it down. and i don't forget, or get too bogged down on everything.
what i want next month:
1) to have done decently on the mcat (dr. green said 35- i'd love a 38)
2) to have started school on the right foot
3) to get some exercise and have a good sleep/work schedule
what i want for the school year:
1) to get that darned 3.75
2) to appeal and be successful-- if not, then to try med schools
3) to get a position at a hospital
4) to get a job that i will enjoy? (maaaybe?)
5) to go abroad--> this is the least likely since M got sick abroad and now my whole family is terrified of the idea.
what i want next year:
1) to start med school
2) to make some good study buddy friends
3) to have greg somewhere close by
what i want in the next few years:
1) to make it through med school
2) to get into a California residency program
3) to have greg somewhere close by
4) to be closer to my friends from home. i miss them. and i shouldn't have left california in the first place
after that-- i guess, family, blah blah blah. i personally don't think i'll ever be mature enough to have a kid. heh. but i do still want to host foster kids when i'm older and my biological kids--if they do exist-- are all in college and doing their own thing.
so on the biggest most important thing on my plate right now! mcats (: yay! (sigh)
not sleeping, but dreaming
AUGH
my life is so boring. that i have a blog about my dreams. because they are. quite literally. the most exciting things that happen to me.
so sad.
but yesterday. i was super bored. so instead of studying nephrons like i should be doing, i decided to visit stephenie meyer's website. where i read that she got her idea for twilight from a dream she had. and i was like. COOL. i could totally make movies out of my dreams. make them a little bit weirder, and yet at the same time more humanely possible. and then bam! my moneymaker.
and here. i will have a list of jobs/vocations/things i will do if i fail at life and don't make it as a doctor.
1) journalist. yes. so one of my close friends from highschool is doing this and she's amazing at it and although she talks about how boring it can become at times, i think i would enjoy this. and get a pretty interesting life experience out of it.
2) a children's book writer. i'll take anything! i'd love to write those short stories that make lasting impressions. don't think i'll ever forget the giving tree, or the bernstein bears, or curious george... and the list goes on forever...
3) the other children's book writer. i guess they might make this more "young adult" but i think they're still children. i loved anne of green gables, and all of philip pullman's books, and especially ender's game and of course the list goes on and on. now that harry potter and twilight are getting so much publicity, i would love to write a series of books about a world that i get to imagine up for entertainment's sake.
4) screenplay writer-- and this is where all my nightmares will finally come into play! although i must stay extremely stressed! yes indeed. as long as the stress is high, the nightmares get more interesting!
so the problem with the above list is I SUCK AT WRITING. i'm quite sure you all noticed that while reading this.
and here is the list of dream jobs that i will never get but will always want.
1) fashionista. HAHAHA. yeah. it's okay. just laugh it out. i know you will. i am by far one of the least fashionable people i know. for so many reasons. but hey! i think it would be totally awesome if i could spend my days looking of clothing and accessories and shoes. it's an artform that is always changing. i love the travelling and all the interesting findings included in this job.
2) the random, weird, but oh-so-necessary side kick. okay. so i'll totally admit it. i don't have the looks to ever be the star to my own movie. but heck i would love to be a sidekick. or a side character for comic relief.
3) an art dealer. hey. so along with fashion, i happen to really like art. i would love to spend my days at a museum looking at things, trying to find the history/story behind all of it. and i'd love seeing/finding new paintings and trying to determine the value of them.
of course there is more. but the nephrons are calling for me!
and yet despite lying in my bed for three hours, not falling asleep, imagining how awesome it would be if i could write really successful screenplays-- i also remembered all the reasons why i want to be a doctor.
for one, it simply wouldn't be that fulfilling to me to be a fashionista or an art dealer, because, well, if i were ever on an airplane to milan, and the child next to me suddenly goes out cold, i'd hate myself for not being a doctor and not knowing how to save her. it just comes down to that. there is nothing more precious than a human life, and not knowing how to preserve it, well it really makes my life worthless to me.
my life is so boring. that i have a blog about my dreams. because they are. quite literally. the most exciting things that happen to me.
so sad.
but yesterday. i was super bored. so instead of studying nephrons like i should be doing, i decided to visit stephenie meyer's website. where i read that she got her idea for twilight from a dream she had. and i was like. COOL. i could totally make movies out of my dreams. make them a little bit weirder, and yet at the same time more humanely possible. and then bam! my moneymaker.
and here. i will have a list of jobs/vocations/things i will do if i fail at life and don't make it as a doctor.
1) journalist. yes. so one of my close friends from highschool is doing this and she's amazing at it and although she talks about how boring it can become at times, i think i would enjoy this. and get a pretty interesting life experience out of it.
2) a children's book writer. i'll take anything! i'd love to write those short stories that make lasting impressions. don't think i'll ever forget the giving tree, or the bernstein bears, or curious george... and the list goes on forever...
3) the other children's book writer. i guess they might make this more "young adult" but i think they're still children. i loved anne of green gables, and all of philip pullman's books, and especially ender's game and of course the list goes on and on. now that harry potter and twilight are getting so much publicity, i would love to write a series of books about a world that i get to imagine up for entertainment's sake.
4) screenplay writer-- and this is where all my nightmares will finally come into play! although i must stay extremely stressed! yes indeed. as long as the stress is high, the nightmares get more interesting!
so the problem with the above list is I SUCK AT WRITING. i'm quite sure you all noticed that while reading this.
and here is the list of dream jobs that i will never get but will always want.
1) fashionista. HAHAHA. yeah. it's okay. just laugh it out. i know you will. i am by far one of the least fashionable people i know. for so many reasons. but hey! i think it would be totally awesome if i could spend my days looking of clothing and accessories and shoes. it's an artform that is always changing. i love the travelling and all the interesting findings included in this job.
2) the random, weird, but oh-so-necessary side kick. okay. so i'll totally admit it. i don't have the looks to ever be the star to my own movie. but heck i would love to be a sidekick. or a side character for comic relief.
3) an art dealer. hey. so along with fashion, i happen to really like art. i would love to spend my days at a museum looking at things, trying to find the history/story behind all of it. and i'd love seeing/finding new paintings and trying to determine the value of them.
of course there is more. but the nephrons are calling for me!
and yet despite lying in my bed for three hours, not falling asleep, imagining how awesome it would be if i could write really successful screenplays-- i also remembered all the reasons why i want to be a doctor.
for one, it simply wouldn't be that fulfilling to me to be a fashionista or an art dealer, because, well, if i were ever on an airplane to milan, and the child next to me suddenly goes out cold, i'd hate myself for not being a doctor and not knowing how to save her. it just comes down to that. there is nothing more precious than a human life, and not knowing how to preserve it, well it really makes my life worthless to me.
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